Friday, August 12, 2022

Unrequited dreams. Unkept promises.

The felicitation ceremony allowed for only one companion. It was cruel. But that attribute had been mastered to perfection by the communist government of West Bengal at that time in 1991. In their infinite wisdom or twisted worldview, they had implicitly asked to choose one amongst the parents to be with you when you were to be felicitated for your outstanding academic performance in your 12th. (Lack of space was given as the reason !!!)

So, it was decided. The father was to accompany him. The elder one – the jewel in the crown. Outshining perhaps even the one who couldn’t be outshone. Competitive exams mastered beyond expectations. A man of exceptional intelligence – I was told later. I never did realize though, for the longest time.

The mother was happy at the son’s incredible achievement. But disappointed at having to miss out on such a prestigious occasion. The younger one was 12, barely nibbling at the teens. He promised. There would be another time. When it was his time. The mother smiled.

It was not to be. The distracted younger one muffled up. Missed the only opportunity that was. Did the mother remember? Maybe. The son never asked. But he would remember this. For life. He would also remember the disappointed voice over the phone when he informed his father that his dream of seeing both his sons attend the same college would not come true. For life.

18 years later, the father would go. No goodbyes. In that 18 years, the elder one continued to prosper. The younger one too, did spring unexpected surprises and did fine. Neither of the sons had the opportunity to express gratitude or love before he left.

The mother carried on. The younger one promised her to be there whenever she needed him. This time, he did keep. 4 years later, Covid struck. Being in different countries, with no possibility of travel, the mother felt hopeless. The elder son made it a point to call everyday. Everyday – for 2 years. The younger one promised her again to visit – the day it allowed him to travel and resolved to be there for her 75th.

Life had other plans. Travel restrictions remained through September 2021. Destiny seemed to be unfavourable to the younger one. Then suddenly, it turned. November 2021 – a month before her 75, easing of restrictions were announced. Nudged by the wife, the younger one, despite trepidation, very afraid, convinced, planned his visit. Landed and went home unannounced. Rang the doorbell.

And saw her smiling. A smile delayed 23 years. Not a redemption perhaps but one to keep. For life. 

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